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Happy Belated Birthday to Me!

gertyrae — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 02:51:46 +0000

It wasn’t a bad birthday at all. The age factor kind of sucks, but other than that it was a good day.

My darling hubby got me tickets to see Metallica in January – very exciting stuff.

And we went to Cheeburger Cheeburger for dinner – I live on the edge, don’t I? But with the economy and all, I figure low key is better. Besides, they have the most awesomest shakes ever!! Snickers is my poison of choice.

I haven’t lost any weight, nor have I gained any…so stable is where we are at. I’m just dealing with it for now. If I can get up the gumption to do more weight loss stuff then great, if not – I refuse to stress about it with everything else going on.

I did give myself the birthday present of piercing the top of my ear. I’ve been wanting to do it forever (well, ever since it closed up in a day), so I decided to get it done and over with. Now, of course, I want to do the inside of my ear…..maybe for Christmas!!!

Still on BCP, but I think I finally stopped spotting, so I might actually be able to have real, live sex before I start stimming.

Tomorrow and Saturday are set aside for Pumpkin Carving!! Yeah, I’m a loser – gotta love it.

Geez – I’m old!

gertyrae — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 08:03:46 +0000

Yowzah is all I can say….43

Never thought I’d get to this old….but here I am.

And the workout log is done for now…haven’t worked out in two whole days. Although I did go for a two mile hike on Sunday with the hound and spent Monday afternoon doing a ton of yardwork…but that’s not really working out.

Of course, there’s no news on the IVF front since I’m still taking BCP’s – oh, and spotting/staining constantly. How much do I hate Birth Control Pills…that is the real question. I feel like I’ve had some version of a period for months now, even though it’s only been around 8 days.

No weight loss to report either and I’m sure there won’t be any today – what with the cakes, cookies etc. that will be at work today!!

Anyway – Happy Birthday to me and there’s only one thing I really want for my birthday this year…all I can do is pray I get it.

Rough Week

gertyrae — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 01:48:06 +0000

Yup, it’s been a tough week!
Of course I’ve already mentioned Rogan’s birth on Monday. Then, on Monday night at my monthly book club meeting, my wisdom tooth breaks in half. Fun times!
So, I wake up Tuesday and the first thing I do is Pee(on a stick) in order to get my first official BFN (big fat negative). Gee, what did I really expect. Well, now I know I can get the tooth worked on…yippeekiyahmuthafucka!!!
So, I spend the morning calling every oral surgeon and his brother in order to get an appointment to have said tooth removed. Finally get a 3:30 appointment and off I go.
The pulling is relatively easy…amazingly enough. Now, it’s home to rest again jiggity jig.
Wake up Wednesday morning with the worst (TMI COMING UP) diarrhea. Wow, could this get any better! Sickness continues all day…I’m assuming reaction to the novacaine…until a friend calls me to tell me she has salmonella poisoning from the food she ate on Monday night (with me)! Guess it’s not a reaction to the novacaine after all.
Luckily for me, I wake up on Thursday feeling semi-normal and it’s off to work I go.
Friday is official beta day….negatory! As if I didn’t know. And when my RE calls me with the info, I am almost consoling him. I actually feel bad for this man. He wants me to get pregnant in the worst way and it is soooooooooooo not happening. We’ve gone through 20 embryo’s in three months including two morula’s, one 10 cell grade 1 and one 8 cell grade 1, you would think one of them would have worked.
I swear, I wish I had the money for donor egg, cuz I would so do it at this point. I know it’s all me and if we had one decent egg I would get pregnant. Then of course, I’d just have to stay pregnant for nine months.
Anyway, as I’m consoling the lovely Dr. K – he tells me that he’d like to see me and discuss our next move. I inform him that I made an appointment to see him a month ago and I will be there Monday afternoon to talk about our options. I wouldn’t say he sounded happy, I think he might have like more time to prepare himself for the onslaught of me. But, he’ll deal with it.
So, I have the upcoming weekend to discuss with hubby what we should do – which will be stim or don’t stim basically. Or do we just decide to call it quits. I’m not sure I’m ready to call it quits and yet I’m not sure that I’m ready to stim again. And it’s not like I have a lot of time, considering the fact that I’ll be 43 in two weeks. Eggs are already another year older than the last batch, not a positive thing that’s for sure. Wouldn’t it be nice if you could get ten grand to fall from the sky?
On the upside, I decided to enter a couple of my jarred goods into a Country Fair competition…how’s that for the penultimate dorky thing to do?! But, I figure it will take my mind off the current state of my affairs. I’m also going to get down and dirty with working out and losing weight – I need to drop a good 30 pounds. I’m sure that doesn’t help my fertility case at all. Mostly, I figure it will help me to focus on other things besides fertility (or lack thereof) for a bit.
I’m going to assume next week will be better than this past one was….I’m not sure it could get worse, but who knows.

Oh, yeah…it was Misty’s birthday on Thursday! She’s four years old and still as cute as ever!!! And she just loves when I make her wear things….

Misty