It's unusual…

..what started out as an IVF journey and ended up being about life

Day 5 of stims… October 22, 2008

Filed under: IVF — gertyrae @ 7:40 pm
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…and I already have 30 follicles at or around 11mm.

Did I mention that I’m a freak?! Of course, of those follies I’ll be lucky if one is decent. I did the 150iu of Gonal F up until this morning…now I’m doing 1 vial of Cetritide and 8 units of Micro-dose Ovidrel. All with daily monitoring. I have to give the Dr. credit, they are definitely monitoring me closely.

 

Oh and Estradial is 1270, FSH is 11.8 and Progesterone was 1.8…..

I just want one good egg. One egg that will genetically be able to create a healthy child. One egg that I can count on. Out of all these stupid eggs, I just want one. I don’t even care how long it takes me to get to that egg….I just want it to be there.

Everyone thinks it’s sooooooooo wonderful that I create all these eggs. Everyone thinks that I’ll definitely get PG with all these eggs. What “Everyone” doesn’t understand is that after going through 60 – yes 60!!! – embryo’s, I had one good pregnancy. One healthy baby, who I lost because of my cervix. Now, I have to hope that of these that I get now…..there is one more baby. What are the real odds of that? Probably not that great. But, I keep hoping. And I keep praying. Cuz if that baby isn’t in this bunch of eggs…then it’s no baby for us.

And that’s my rant for the day.

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3 Responses to “Day 5 of stims…”

  1. keystoclaritycoach Says:

    lots of baby dust to you!

    my thoughts are with you,
    Coach Louise

    http://www.lifebalanceinfertilitycoach.wordpress.com

  2. emilythehopeless Says:

    i totally know how you feel..i had 27 follicles during stimming and heard the same things from everyone.. but i only ended up with 4 embryos.. i was the only one not really shocked by that. anyway.. wishing you the best!! hoping you have a perfect little one in there with tons of potential!

  3. gertyrae Says:

    thank you so much ladies!!
    And Emily…isn’t it amazing how hardened and negative we become?
    I want you to know I’m praying for those last two snowbabies!!


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